why i should study???

that questions couldn't be answere in a simple way...

i have to focus on what i want to be..

what i want to be actually....

i don't know

or

i don't want to know

its just confius here

i already spoil my ambitious

and

i don't know how to manage them back

it just my mistake

down my parents dream

oh my GOD...

please help me...

forgive me what i have done..

i don't know what to do now..

don't know how to do now.. 

don;t know what going on behind me!!!

what happened to me..

why i choose this step

why i take this step

why i move on this step...even i know something wrong here...

from i was a child till now...a teenager

i only focus on study... yeah...whatever

i try to be someone

but, i have spoil all the dream

don't know how to return all the things

how can i face to my parents

how can i face to people

how can i face to my family

that was really ............

somebody help me...

but i know

only me can repair all the mistaken that i have done

i don't know to do it

but, i still have to try

i know...

still someone with me

and never leave me behind in alone

the one that i always remember

i love u..

always love u till i die...

really don't know what will be happened

if u are not with me

that's was u..

...ummi...

i really love u...

because of u

till now

i always be strong

i always try hard to make u happy

i don;t want to disappointing u again

never

but i do it again..

please forgive ur doughter

but

i always love u...